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眼看我就要迈入女人都害怕的年龄转型期了，三十岁，对于很多女人来说，是用各种方式来挽回马上要失去的美丽与青春。比如说买高档的化妆品，进美容室，吃大补的东西等。其实，我认为这些都没有用，反而有些挽救的方式会转变为毁灭的方式。很多化妆品，我们肉眼看不到而且也不知道里面是什么东西，即使短时能奏效就能保证长时间不对皮肤有损害吗？那些卖化妆品的商家抓住女人的这个心理，赚够了钱。但是女人的面部还是一样的会一天一天变得衰老。有的女人竟然被劣质化妆品毁了容，更是不值得。

其实女人并不定为了脸而天天愁眉苦脸，花钱如水。我们无法挽救逝去的青春就让它去吧。年老也是一种快乐，起码我们还获得了其他的青春所得不到的东西，比如说子女，成熟，经验！还有和丈夫一起回忆往事的点点滴滴。

听说人的内心可以改变人的容貌。一个心理无所羁绊的人到老了也是鹤发童颜。所以只要保持一颗清净的心灵，才能驾驭我们的肉体，整天愁眉苦脸的，肯定老的很快。听说唱歌也能减缓衰老。所以我们要想年轻，还得从心，气做起。

       前几天听《百家讲坛》的于丹庄子心得。她在形容每个人在社会上和他人的关系时，用了一个小故事来说明问题。那就是天堂和地狱都是一群人围着一个盛满饭的大锅，可是每个人只能各自用一米长的勺子来吃饭。地狱里的人都饿的面黄肌瘦，那是因为他们只是用长勺子使劲往自己嘴里送饭，可是怎么也吃不到。可是天堂里的人都容光焕发，那是因为他们都用长勺子往别人嘴里送饭，结果每个人都能吃到饭。现在想想，在我们社会上，我们只靠自己的话，真的什么也干不了。因为我们自己的能力都很有限。我们已不是以前的靠自给自足的封建经济而活了，我们现在分工越来越细，我们吃的穿的住的，都得靠别人。现在我们很多信息也得靠和别人交流才能获得。庄子并不是让我们清高，不问世事，而是让我们在纷繁复杂的社会中，表面上随着社会制度的规则，而自己的内心不变，内心要空灵，不能被世上的东西给蒙蔽。这就是庄子所说的内不化而外化。如果一味的随着自己的内心而不在外变通的话，我们人类会遇到很多不必要的麻烦。当然我们还得学习一套为人处事的方法。从自己的话语，表情，行动，态度等等细微的地方来好好的反思和总结。

Writing final papers needs much information. These days, I am busy collecting the useful information in my books because I want to go back home to write my paper, but I cant’ carry so many books to home. On the other hand, I have to carry some books that is heavy for me, so I have to go to one home, and give up going to the other(sanmenxia). It is too hot in zhengzhou and it is not convenient to eat and sleep. It is said that people can’t study at home. And I couldn’t read books at home before. But now I have pressures, and my husband says he will warn me to study at home. Will is the most important thing to study at home.

Now, I feel relaxed because I have finished my homework. From now on, I can concentrate on my final paper. But it is a difficult task to do. One of the difficulty is to define some terms that I can’t find in my books. So during my writing papers, I have to look for books to read. Another difficulty is my 760-page original text, Gravity’s Rainbow. To understand it clearly is a great task too.

These days, I go to the classroom without a rest at noon. I have met many difficulties, the drowse, the cowardice for study, the deep books, the papers, finding suitable classroom and so on. But I have written and known something little by little, which I feel enjoyable. I study efficiently in the classroom, so it’s the reason why I decided to stay at school. Now, I have nearly finished the paper on philosophy, which makes me feel relaxed. I have the confidence to finish other papers and the final paper for my degree. My husband supposes my decision, but he has lost something for me. I appreciate his understanding and his help.